Ever felt lost for words

May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all — 2 Corinthians 13:14

So many things has happened at once

So many battles to fight

So much pain to hold in

Can’t say you hate because you have the lord on your side

We only human and our flesh is weak and we become weak when we let emotions-take over

Holy Spirit I ask everyday to pure the blood of jesus over my home my children my husband and I protect our every thought our every walk

My lord it isn’t easy but is never impossible

Have you ever changed from one day to another with out you noticing have you ever want to learn something you’ve forgot about

A lot of people ask me why? Why have I changed.

I didn’t have a choice the lord did it without me understanding why or what was coming my way. Oh and it was hard it was for me to fall and lose it all.

But the lord held me so tight and so strong that at times I feel the pain but as I feel it the lords presence turns me on fire to remind me I’m not alone to remind I’m still strong and his by my side oh god is so good .

Wow I’ve seen so many changes in my home it could be good and bad but I stay strong

Funny is when the devil try’s I stay firm and praise the lord stronger oh yes I’m a child of god my father watches over me and my household.

Ever been so lost for words and you can’t give an explanation to why me?

Goods coming people wake up and asking for forgiveness read the Bible start loving one another

Stop hating

Stop judging

Stop it with the jealously

Stop with the crimes

Stop killing each other

Stop ignoring your purpose in life

Just stop 🛑

Pick up the Bible

Read to your children

Save the next nations

Help save souls

We all going home soon

Yes god is coming

And his coming soon

No I don’t know it all but I know we have one god

No matter if you Pentecostal Jews Muslim catholic 

We only have one religion one god

one king of Israel

We all come from the same king

We need to love each other

we need to help each other

We need to save each other and ask the lord for forgiveness

The lord loves everyone he has no limits no matter who you are

No matter your color race religion backgrounds

As long as we give in to the lord and obey is word and stay faithful loyal to the lord.

Remember jesus gave up his life to save us because he loves us


Remember people is never to late to follow the lord and ask for forgiveness as long as you are using your heart and being true to the lord

God is good

God love us

he has no limits

Your blogger

Sister Melanie

Yes I’m a sister of a beautiful church who I call family my sisters my brothers

And my wonderful pastors Roberto VASQUEZ and CARMEN VASQUEZ who I was blessed to have has my leaders. ❤️ May the lord bless them today and always 🙏🏼


Wondering what I mean about being reborn?

Well ever since my life has changed and I did a 360 and I started to look for gods words of understanding my life. I decided to change it all.

With my character my anger my choices and I’m still learning to choose the right words.

I finally got baptized yes, baptized I’m 36 years old and I got baptized that isn’t a problem I understand the meaning of baptism and why is it important

Ever since I’ve been going to church I haven’t had one cup of wine or even a blunt yes a blunt it isn’t hard to let go when you have god by your side but let me tell you how the devil has been using what’s around me to break me but he can’t I have the alpha omega behind me and in-front of me protecting me and my family

Is it easy ! no it isn’t but can I say I am truly blessed with my pastors my pastors wife is an angel and strong women who shows love to everyone and makes you feel so comfortable love her so much.

So now being reborn

Being reborn on baptism means he who died for our sins has washed away your sins and you would be reborn in his name Jesus Christ did I say god is good yes he is

God has been working with me without me even knowing he was. Wow that I use to get upset and want to argue or even fight yes I always let my anger win. But gods been working on me for a long time. all I want is peace and no drama and lots of happiness I’ve left behind so much and I’ll continue to leave what’s not meant for me behind.

With this new year I say and would say it again I’m moving forward and what ever was left behind would stay behind.

Peace love and most important stay strong in faith.

Your crazy blogger

Meli Mel 🙏🏼



A lot of people use this word not know that the more you say the more you may drown in it.

So many say I feel depressed, and cave themselves in not wanting to speak to no one or do anything with their life just put themselves down everyday not knowing they getting themselves sick.

When you listen to other people’s problems and situations you would even tell yourself wow! But why I say I’m depressed.

Why say you are when there’s so much to this world that you could enjoy. God gave his life so we could enjoy life.

We need to let go and move forward and start new never hurts to let go that’s the best feeling ever.

Depression is an emotion that try’s to destroy you if you let it win you’ve lost the battle.

Peace love and faith

You crazy blogger

Meli Mel

A poem from my oldest daughter

From Kaylee arias

Here’s your poem mom:
Night and day the sun will shine brighter.beauty of no other eyes are mesmerizing darkness fades away.hiding in your arms escape way into the light.heart slows down eyes close safe with you.happiness slowly coming above.protect you always stand in front no one can harm you! Your my protector I’m your shield.my days have been dark my smile appears my laughter slowly becoming true. Starting to love me due to you.being more open more friendly more kind.raised into humbling and kind well being.your
Beautiful your amazing smile because another day another year of living.im growing up but I will always love you and I will always hold you close💜

Everything is temporary

Ever hard that saying ” people come in your life for a reason” ? It’s never a accident who comes in and out your life.

Some may come as a blessing

Some may come to show you pain

Some come around to break your heart ❤️

Some to make you smile

Some to show you, your worth

Or how beautiful your soul really is

And some to remind you of who you was

As humans we learn new things everyday

Is on us what path we’ve chosen to walk on

It can be an incorrect path


The right path

Being who we are isn’t just planned out in your head we become who we are because of life

Life lessons teach us how to survive

We just need to learn how to deal with emotions better

Just maybe we would find the right answers at the right time .

And stay real to who we are

Never change for no one

If he or she loves you they would change to be a better version of themselves for you. Now that’s what you call LOVE ❤️






That’s all that matters in life is to be happy and live in peace 😉

Your crazy blogger

Meli Mel 🙏🏼


People tell me when giving up or feeling like I’m losing it all just pray and trust in him!

Not knowing that I’ve prayed and prayed but not the right way.

Praying for this pain to go away

Praying to be saved

Praying that my pain won’t change who I am

Praying for my sanity

But I can’t pray for me

I have to pray for what’s around me to be saved

To be at peace

To understand

To clarify my intuition

To clear all negative thoughts

To have faith

To believe once again

To find me

To find what I believe

To believe in him

To praise him

To follow is word

Once with all this

I could once again love

Love myself

Love what’s around me

Love life

Love all my blessings

Love and give love

But first of all love me again


Smile because it brightens up the world

Laugh because it helps with depression

Live yes live because we only die once

So enjoy life like it’s your last day!

Your crazy blogger

Meli Mel ❤️


Ever just wake up and said it’s over?

I have, this year has been so emotional and stressful year. So many unexpected behaviors of the ones I love, so much pain I’ve been through.

So many times I’ve said I got this, but mentally giving up little by little. And another painful truth today.

Why me? Why me I ask god but only he knows why. It isn’t my time and I have to accept his ways. So much pain so much disappointments.

Which way should I go, should I run should I stay. All I can do is wait and listen.

Only god knows when!

When my new challenges would come

If there good

Or some

More disappointments.

I ask why me?

The lord says just wait and see!

I say see what lord ?

Just be patient.

No one said your life is going to be roses and chocolates

This world

Is so evil

So many people who are selfish

So many who don’t care about others

So many who want to see you fall

So many who enjoy disappointments

Let’s be the ones who love more

Who helps more

Who cares more

Who believes more

Who haves more faith

More faith in him

Maybe just that faith is what you need to breath again


Smile laugh love

But live , live everyday because we only die once

😉 your crazy blogger

Meli Mel ❤️

Life has different season

What I mean about seasons? Well we have good , bad , stressful and very emotional depressed seasons.

Dealing with any bad seasons isn’t easy to deal with the enemy knows how to use you and destroy what’s around you.

He would make you feel like you aren’t worth anything he would trigger : anxiety Panic attacks bad mood swings rants complaining about life even make you have suicidal thoughts .

But we don’t see it this way we would question our ability to surrender and be so weak.

But let me tell you a little secret I’ve looked around and found my place of peace and tranquility. Have you ever prayed so much that you have forgotten why you was praying.

Have you enter a church where you’ve felt like you belong and feel at home. That’s god he always has his hands open and ready to help you heal.

There’s a saying in the Bible don’t quote me because I’m not sure if I’m correct I’m still learning.

“Come to me with open arms and I’ll heal and protect you with an open heart. ”

When opening to god you have to go with an open heart open mind and forgive and forget the pass.

Yes you would be tested over and over again yes you would lose friends family even relationship that aren’t meant to be why ? Because god has a plan for a purpose to forFill.

I just started my journey and I can say that it’s been tough and so emotional but what I can say when I open up my bible or listen to Messages on YouTube it calms me down and all my worries are gone. Started with my baptism classes who would say I’ll be excited but I am to learn his word and understand so I could teach my daughters so I could help my husband understand why it’s important in a relationship so many reasons why we need to look for god not only when we in pain or hurt or even sick we need to look for god when we are good and blessed in every way. Because yes god is good all the time even on the bad emotional days just pray and he would listen. 


Remember live laugh love and always smile because we live every day but we die once 🥰

Your crazy blogger

Meli Mel

Fighting my demons

Ever wake up so dizzy 🥴 and confused about life, not knowing where to go or what to do.

After it all you still don’t know! How to deal with all this pain. So many situations happening at once, dealing with so much negativity.

Oh lord may who ever is dealing with there demons. May you cover them with your blood and protect them from all evil and negativity against them. Amén

What I mean about demons? We all Fight with our minds everyday. Trying to do everything right, But we’re not perfect. It’s always a way a demon could destroy your world your life in some way.

In our minds we could do so many things to hurt ours who’s hurt us or even worst. We fight with demons all the time. They come in so many shapes and forms. ( brother, sister , mother , father , spouse ) etc. some way they would get to you if you weak ( meaning flesh and mind ) even sometimes your emotions may even betray you.

Pray! Pray and god for sure would listen. Look for him, love you first before loving anyone else. Never think it’s the end for you because only god would decide when is your time. is never to late to find your purpose in life and finding god. Oh my god his so good 😊.


Your crazy little blogger

Meli Mel

Remember smile laugh so hard that it hurts enjoy life because we live it everyday but we only die once


Sleeping with the enemy

People will say why sleeping with the enemy? Because it isn’t only your partner that you may say something like that.

Friends family neighbors coworkers you could name them all. You would never know what a person envy’s you or envy’s what you have.

Been married for 6 years in a relationship for 7 years. I thought I had the perfect relationship.

Till October 30, reality smacked me in my face. Yes no one is perfect every relationship has problems. But when a person is to real some how some way they could fall in the cracks and get lost it’s happened to so many.

Never try to satisfy others for not being like them. Being you is unique that’s why we was created differently.

Never try to protect someone from being hurt because you would never know how much pain you would cause or you may make it worst.

Having friends around your family isn’t so good. Some people want you to do good but never better then them. They would hit you from the back with out you even knowing. Dealing with a snake 🐍 is so hard to get rid of especially someone who’s lived in your home when he had no where else to live. Someone who you called brother and who tried to take everything and end it with out any remorse. People like that you need to finish them but the right way.

I’ve found so much peace in going to church and dealing with so many situations at once’s that if it wasn’t for my lord almighty I think I’ve would of lost it.

Give god your enemies and worries and god would deal with it all.

The same way a snake moves is the same way lots of people move now in days you have to have faith and hope in god. Because this world is coming to an end soon.


Live love ❤️ smile

We live every day

We die once

So enjoy 😊 what you have in front and let go of what was

Your crazy blogger

MeliMel 😊