Confused


Ever felt lost for words

Ever felt empty with out being empty

Ever wanted to just say how you feel with out caring for others feelings but your own

Ever felt like you living a lie and don’t know how to snap out of it

Ever want to believe every word spoken . To you after it’s been broken

Lost for words lost for caring

Just want to run and say how you feel without caring

Your heart starts racing faster and faster with out skipping a beat

Racing so fast that you would be afraid of the words that may come out by mistake

Oh lord I’ll keep praying 🙏 waiting for a response

Understanding it isn’t the right time

But when is the right time

When can I be heard

When can I dry my tears

And brush this pain away

Just when


Your silly sister Melimel

GOD BLESS YOU ALL

Happy Thanksgiving 🦃🍁

What’s midlife crisis

Can I say I’m having a midlife crisis? Omg turning 37 and I feel like I’ve wasted my life I feel life I’m missing a lot in my journey.

Two failed marriages 3 kids which one don’t want to speak to me because I didn’t want to accept who he was. I dislike myself for being where I’m at.

But I’m still married trying to work it out

I’m finishing my degree which it so hard right now. I’m blessed to have a job right now. Which so many have lost.

So this being said no it’s the devil trying to make me fail and I will not allow it to. I’ve accomplished so much being broken emotionally.

Ive lived a year with pain and it didn’t kill me God made me stronger

Lived a year without my son who I love so much no matter what

And a year in church learning Gods scriptures. So why am I thinking I’ve wasted my life. Nope not today devil not today

I’m beyond blessed

Grateful

Oh and did I say I just turned 37 years old this year. Thank you father for blessing me with another year. 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼

Your silly 🙃 sister melanie

Technology and Young Children

Technology and young children

I chose these two topics because I work in a school and see the challenges students go through daily.  Not only the students but parents and teachers as well, students are so smart that they would know how to work with devices and act in front of their parents as if they have no idea how to use it. We have parents who don’t care and let their kids do as they please if they log in or don’t hand in assignments. Many pros and cons with technology and young children; when children are online 8 hours a day, they start to fidget; due to this pandemic, we have students who struggle with reading, compering, and solving problems. Suppose parents can’t work together with the teacher. We are going to have a big disaster when it comes to education.

Children need:

  • Mobility
  • Touch
  • Nature
  • Human Communication

No. I didn’t research this; I feel this is proof that we, as parents, teachers, and community, are seen the lack of human communication children are becoming more anti-social more depress. More suicidal we as teachers need parents’ help to communicate more with students to understand their mental state; tell them that we are here to help. If we don’t fix this, our future scholars are in big trouble. Students aren’t going to share with others; they will have problems in schools presenting projects and having their voices heard. Is this going to slow down children’s literacy?

I’ve asked myself these questions repeatedly, and it’s so hard to answer if we don’t work on fixing the problems we are facing today in online learning.

  1. How will children be like in the future?
  2. Could technology lead to educational disaster?
  3. How can we fix this?
  4. What are the first steps?

Nature, why I say this; we need sunlight, we need the air we need to enjoy the world’s beauty. Children need Nature to help with immunity, health, sun rays. Yes, Nature is part of a children’s reproductive grow we don’t need to be doctors or scientists to see this.

Touch is essential to a child significantly growing up; we grow up with our parent’s hugs, kisses, and love. In today’s era, technology is raising our children; parents are too busy with work and their phones and too busy for family. Parents are buying smart TVs, video games, and smartphones so they could keep their children occupied. Not knowing this pandemic, it has changed so much that teachers who would give that love and affection cant no longer do it. A student who has no physical interaction at home looks forward to going to school to receive that hug from a teacher.

Obesity

This pandemic has changed how PE class is being taught in schools worldwide; students are just watching videos, answering health questions, or just letting their anxiety eat them “fat.” Why did I say Fat? What mobility are children having at home? As I have seen in my daughter’s class and school, students sit down watching videos, not participating in the exercise. Being a teacher in this era will be challenging; we will have to learn how to deal with so many challenges as insecurities in students’ depression and anti-socialism. Teach them how we lived 20 years ago, playing in the parks enjoying an outside interaction with each other and yes, the best one ever no technology unless it is needed in class or for homework.

Reopening Plan, Emotion and Struggles

We as parents have so many questions, fears and so on. But we ask why some schools are taking forever to answer questions parents have. why other schools are ahead of others?

Let me tell you; I work for a wonderful school, that they think of students and families and their safety. I’ve been a parent to “Bronx Light House charter School” since they opened 2005, which my oldest graduated. I have a 6th Grader and a 10th Grader; since all of this situation with the “Corona Virus” I’ve had to call and question them on my children education. Other parents and I have wondered why the name change why wasn’t parents told about this before it happened? why worry about a change of name, when what’s important is the education of the students. but these are question not only I but other parents have to ask. so many upsetting situations on learning plans and class organization, miscommunication. we have gone though of this.

We as parents sometimes have so many questions that we forget to ask that are important, for example:

Why the name change?

Why haven’t the school communicated with parents about any changes or how is the learning plans going to be this year?

Are teacher’s going to introduce themselves before school starts?

Are teachers going to communicate more with parents this year around?

Are students going to have clubs; where they can help each other who is struggling with online learning ?

What happens with my child data information, Due to programs that are being used while online learning?

What time students start their day? What time do they end their day?

What plate Forms are the schools using to communicate with parents? meaning: Parent Square, Power School, class Dojo etc.

So many parents are worried if they should send their children Hybrid learning or Remote learning. for my children I said Remote. Why I did that if I work; because as a parent who works in a school. I’ve seen what kids do and how they’re behavior change when they are not with their parents. Yes, we have to teach our children responsibilities at some point in their life’s. But right now we have to be realistic with situations we are facing today.

Besides the different changes we as parents are facing, we also have to deal with having our children entering the tech world. what I mean about the tech world, well this generation have learned so many crazy stuff online. That now they have to take online learning, we don’t know what programs schools are using and what are the “third-party programs” doing with students information. Yes, Parents not online we have to be careful with what our children are doing we also have to ask the school how is my child data information being kept safe and private. Not so many parent are not so good with technology. children may act like they doing work but they’re not. trust me children are very smart when it comes to devices.

We as parents have to ask the principle’s questions about students safety and privacy.

What those programs do with my child information after school contract is over?

How are they making sure students information is being kept private ?

How is my child being protected from identity theft?

etc.

We didn’t think things through when it came to online learning and the safety of students identity. The same way we as adults have to secure our information now we have to make sure our children Data information is safe.

We need to communicate more with our children and ask them questions, also ask them for help if we don’t understand something on the device or how to work with one. Bond even more your children let them teach you what they know.

have a bless reopening and stay positive and have lots of faith.

Your sister Melimel

God Bless you all

Ever Felt So Lost!

So much in my mind,

so much pain and confusion, I ask why? why, can I just not feel.

ever felt lost,

lost in words

lost in emotions

lost in pain

ever felt like letting go and ending it all.

but they say that’s a sin, so we ask for forgiveness.

but why we live with so much pain, so much sorrow.

why envy those who have left to the other side,

we don’t know if they in heaven or in hell,

we here to follow the lords every word,

but what if we cant hear,

lord we ask for forgiveness

lord help us

help us hear you once again.

oh lord forgive me and them for offending you

oh lord heal us with your mighty cloth and hand.

oh lord we need you, I need you lord.

help me come to you feet once again.

oh father hear us

in Jesus name amen.

we aren’t perfect but we know when we are wrong or when we in need of him

the lord is always listening

the lord never sleeps

he watches over us and protects our every step

your crazy sister melimel

god bless

I spoke to God

I talked to God today..
I talk to God about..
I talk to God about my day..
I talk to God about my health..
I talk to Him about my emotions..
How I love talking to God..

I talked to God yesterday..
I talk to Him when I am ashamed..
I talk to God about my goals..
I talk to God as I pray..
When I talk to God I am in such peace..

Talking to God replenishes my spirit..
Like a prayer poem from my heart..
Yes I talk to God..
Talking to God is a daily part of my life..
I talk to Him when nothing else is fulfilling..
I praise God when I talk to Him..
I wish everyone would take some time to talk to God….

Your sister melanie

God bless you 🙏 all.

Promises!

Almost all relations are built on ‘Promises’. Promise to be there; Promise to be the soft place to land if the other falls; Promise to love unconditionally; Promise to love till Eternity! But there is this thing about Promises; they aren’t always fulfilled. People lie. People change. Circumstances don’t remain the same. There is no […]

Promises!

What a wonderful poem

I hope you enjoy the following poem I post for you this morning. I wrote it more than 15 years ago and titled it:

“I Thirst…”

Without water we perish, For it has life-giving power To all of God’s creatures on earth. Just as water sustains us… Giving life to our bodies… ‘Living Water’ gives our spirits rebirth. “With joy you’ll draw water “From the wells of salvation “And you will say in that day… “ “Give thanks to the Lord, “Call upon His name…” God inspired Isaiah to say. * God is The Hope of Israel… The Fountain of Living Water Jeremiah, The Prophet, proclaimed… And he chastised all those Who would forsake The Lord God… Saying, all who do will be shamed. ** All who drinks of this water… From the Well of Jacob Will surely become thirsty again… But those who drink of His Water Shall never thirst, said Jesus, To the woman at Jacob’s well with Him. “It will become in him,” “A spring of water” He said, “Welling up to eternal life.” *** He told the Samaritan woman She’d had five different men To marry her and take her as wife. On the last day of the feast, That is called, ‘the great day’, Jesus stood before the crowd and proclaimed… “If anyone thirst, “Let him come to me and drink…” **** “This is the Christ!” some of His listeners exclaimed. “He who believes in me, “As the scripture has said,” Christ said to the divided crowd… “’Out of his heart shall flow “Rivers of Living Water.’” Causing arguments to break out aloud. He was speaking of The Spirit To be received by believers After He had been Glorified And The Spirit was sent Just as promised by Jesus Shortly after He’d been crucified.
* Isaiah 12:3
** Jeremiah 17:13
*** John 4: 7-1
****John 7: 37-41
Written by: John McKee – February 25, 2005 Jesus and the Samaritan woman at the well

Only the lord can protect 🙏 your Surrounding

Matthew 7:7-8 King James Version (KJV)

Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

LORD, DO A BEAUTIFUL WORK IN US AND BUILD A SOLID FOUNDATION OF WISDOM.

“By wisdom a house is built, and  is established; through knowledge its rooms are filled with rare and beautiful treasures.” (Proverbs 24:3-4)

LORD, HELP US COVER ONE ANOTHER WITH YOUR LOVE EVEN WHEN IT’S HARD.

“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.” (I Peter 4:8)

LORD, TEACH US TO PROTECT ONE ANOTHER AND PERSEVERE WITH HOPE.

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.” (I Corinthians 13:4-8)

LORD, FIRMLY ESTABLISH OUR FAMILY IN FAITH AND GUARD US AGAINST THE ENEMY.

“The Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.” (II Thessalonians 3:3)

LORD, STRENGTHEN OUR HEARTS AND PROVIDE US WITH ABUNDANT PEACE.

“Extol the LORD, Jerusalem; praise your God, Zion. He strengthens the bars of your gates and blesses your people within you. He grants peace to your borders and satisfies you with the finest of wheat.” (Psalm 147:12-14)

LORD, MAY YOUR TRUTH INFUSE OUR LIVES SO THAT NOTHING KEEPS US FROM WALKING IN FULL FREEDOM.

“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” (John 8:32)

LORD, GIVE US DISCERNMENT DURING DIFFICULT TIMES AND DRAW US CLOSER TO YOU EACH DAY.

“Therefore let all the faithful pray to you while you may be found; surely the rising of the mighty waters will not reach them. You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.” (Psalm 32:6-8)



Lord God bless each and everyone of my readers
My the sheld them with the glory blood of jesus 🙏 🙌 may the lord protect them in every step of there journey 🙏
In Jesus name Amen

Your sister Melanie
Have a bless and safe night
God bless you all

Fruit of the spirit !

John 7:24

” Stop judging by mere appearances, and make a right judgement “.

Who are we to judge our neighbor, people misinterpret the meaning of judgement. And judge by appearance meaning of what they see in the outside. There’s a saying ” Never judge a book by its cover”, because if we judge books we would of never read the Bible or pick up any other book and not knowing how beautiful every verse is and how we can learn from the past mistakes.

God speaks to us in so many was, on John 7:24 he states stop judging mere appearance and make a right judgement. We all judge; meaning we judge what we wear, what we eat, where we live and who we date. Yes god says in the Bible

Matthew 7:1-2

” Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgement ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure yet mete, it shall be measured to you again”.

Here God says don’t judge incorrectly, don’t be a hypocrite and judge when you doing the same. So many people in different churches judge our neighbors who enter their temples. We as servants of God we have to welcome and save as many souls as we can. Not judge because they different, don’t judge at all. We have have welcome them and make them feel at home and at peace the way the lord wants to be.

Now in day so many church’s have so many group of different individuals, people who judge one another, this wrong; inn no church there should be groups we are here to praise to learn from one other to teach our youth and new beginners how to pray how to love the lord he way he deserves.

We forgot it isn’t the title they give us in church or how much knowledge we have or if we speak in tongues. A serpent can dress the way we all do they can sing and praise the lord just like us.

Matthew 7:15-16

“Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, But inwardly they are ravening wolves.

” Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thrones, or figs of thistles”.

Meaning we would have to judge by the fruit of the spirit. Why would i say the fruit we may judge. Would you buy a apple the is rotten or would you take the apple that shines. Now if you judge by taking the shiniest apple how may you it isn’t rotten in the inside. That’s why God says judge the right way.

You have to see with the fruit of the spirit and let God show you the serpents around you. Remember serpents may come alone and gather followers to help to destroy what’s around them. Some member may follow a person because they feel like the lord is telling them to do so.

Matthew 7:20

” Wherefore by their fruit ye shall know them”.

Remember God isn’t evil, God is love, peace and simplicity. People misinterpret the following in so many wrong ways. You can force someone to change one day to the next. That is Gods job to show that soul how to follow the path he wants us to follow. To be obedient to praise and to pray for our lord has to come from each individual.

Who are you to make any of those decisions?

Who are you judge who ever works through those doors?

Who are you to decide what anyone should or shouldn’t wear?

Everything we go through in life God has a purpose

He takes away our sins not by you judging

Not you by pointing fingers

But God makes these miracles happen

Look at me

My testimony

I came to church November 3, 2019 heart broken

Not wanting to be here in this world I wanted a change i wanted to disappear

But God put this words in my month we need to change we go to church

And ill say it every day of my life if it wasn’t that my Pastora Carmen Vasquez, took me when i needed peace. She guide me in the right path watched over me everyday. May the lord bless her and my pastor Roberto Vasquez.

I was so lost in the world that i would had a drink every day i use to smoke and listen to music that made me feel so many evil emotions.

God worked with me in so many was with the way i speak with the way i looked at people. Ive learned to love my neighbors to understand my children to hear to be heard and to forgive as the lord forgave us.

December 14 i got baptized before that week God did something that i thought was impossible for me. I smoked so much that I didn’t know how i was going to stop. But let me tell you how a week before i was reborn the Lord took all my sins away I didn’t get sick no relapse none what so ever and when the day came i was at peace i was a new person.

God uses people who are empty, empty enough so he could breath in them again so they can be reborn.

God can use anyone to preach, God may use the most dirtiest person in the street to tell a Christian a prophecy or speak a word of the day. Or just to awaken their spirit.

Who are we to say we have to have enough knowledgeable the Bible to preach

Who are we to judge those who want to learn of the lords ways

God didn’t say we have to have years in church to preach to praise to sing

God uses any one he see who’s empty enough to breath in.

Hebrew 4:12

” For the word of God is living and active, sharper then the double edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints an marrow, it judge’s testimony thoughts and attitudes of the heat”.

God know each individual’s heart, he knows your fears your pain and sorrows.

Speak from the heart, with truth and obedience.

(A.W Tozer)

He said

” The great deficiency ( in church today ) is the lack of spiritual discernment. How there can be so little insight, so little moral penrtration is one of the mysteries of the Christian world today “.(1960)

May the lord watch over each and everyone of my readers. May the lord cover you all with the blood of jesus

In jesus name Amen.

From your sister Melanie

God Bless each of my readers